Fruit Punch Diary

All my life I have been running away from something, just because I was afraid to stand up and face the facts. I’m tired of running, so today I am going to stand up to my fears and admit it to myself that I am…

But, before I go any further I would like to know if you all have a best friend out there? Someone that you believe and look up too? Someone you call your hero, that when you grow up, you would like to be similar to that particular person.

I had a few of those, but the older I got the more I realize that I want to walk in my own footsteps, create my own path. That I want to be my own best friend where I can believe and push myself even more. I do have someone I call my role model, they have made a few mistakes in life but yet they came out successful and they’re still striving for the best. And those are the kind of people I admire.

I have inner and outer beauty, I am Beautiful
I’m always active no matter what, I am Energetic
I never give up, I never stay down, I am Strong
I can do anything I put my mind too, I am Talented

I can easily associate with others, I am Friendly
I am hard to find, but easy to keep, I am Rare
I am admired by, and loved by many, I am Important
I share my light with those in the dark, I am Enlighten
I grow, bloom & shine without chemicals, I am Natural
I won’t stop until my goals are succeeded, I am Determined

What am I? I am my own best friend. It’s time I start seeing myself for what I really am; a Natural Beauty. For some reason I always saw myself as an “Ugly Duckling”. And having that feeling I had no self belief, that what ever people would tell me I would believe them because I didn’t know any better.

Now growing up I would often hear how beautiful, good looking and attractive I am. As a response I would just smile, while having in the back on my mind that these people have no idea what they’re talking about. That they were just saying these things to make me feel good. But what I failed to realize is that they were seeing much more then what I thought of my self.

The more I heard those compliments the more I would decline them. Until one day someone told me that I have no idea what I’m worth that’s why they know that I am still in the process of finding myself.

After they told me that I went and look into the mirror, and I asked myself; “What am I worth?“. The mirror then replied: You are worth more then silver, bronze and gold. You are such an amazing person, you are smart, confident, gorgeous, loving, funny, sweet, one of a kind. I can go on for hours, but it’s something you have to believe within you and live it. Just you, you alone is a incredible person, and once you trust in that, no one can bring you down. They won’t be able to make you think any different, for your mind power will be so strong of self believe that you won’t need people to tell you how beautiful you are in order to make you feel good. Then is when the true beauty will start to shine. It’s always in the eyes of the beholder.

Now I know why I had so much trouble with being happy, for I had no belief and love for myself. I seek to find it on the outside, while it was staring me down from the inside. And now whenever I look in the mirror I smile, because I know that I am the most beautiful person that I have ever met. My best friend lies within me, my beauty.