Fruit Punch Diary

Writing gives me life, it makes me feel great about myself. When ever I have a topic in mind I just jump on my blog that very minute and begin to write, because if I don’t, later on I wouldn’t have that same feeling I had before. When I start I only have the title in mind, and it’s from there I begin to work. And as I type is when ideas start to just pop in my head, and that is how I continue.

Some times I know exactly what it is I want to write, and other days no. But I still comes out good, even better and longer then I expected.

*A true writer writes no matter what

*A true writer knows how to attract their readers

*A true writer cares about their readers

*A true writer writes for himself but concouce of others

*A true writer writes from deep within

*A true writer is what we all are

My work doesn’t always come out the best of the best, but that doesn’t bring me down. I have days when you would feel that I just typed up something quick, and there are times you just have to smile at my work. But I do my best to always keep my work nice for my reader.

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This article I will try to keep short, but sweet.

It’s many times we face situations in life that we don’t know how to handle. Mostly because of the way we handle them, so it just keeps on coming back. And every time it comes back, we tackle it just the same way without thinking on a different approach. I’ll give you a quick example.

I had a best friend, we were like sisters nothing could separate us. I would do anything for her, I placed my everything in our friendship up until we got in a disagreement. It was my misjudgment but after that day she no longer wanted to be friends with me. So that was it, but I am someone who don’t give up on a great thing, so I kept on pushing myself to make it better, but that never worked. So then I got another friend, she is a great friend, but I didn’t call her my best friend because I didn’t want the same thing to happen to me twice. But it still did.

I started expanding my friends and we weren’t spending as much time together as we use too so she slowly pushed herself out of my life until she no longer use to greet me when she saw me.

And I didn’t like that and try to work things out and get things back the way it once was. But it never did come back, I pushed and pushed for things to get better, even spending more time with her, but that just made me see her for the person she really was. And now it’s like she is my enemy, she doesn’t even sit at the same table that I sit on…

What am I doing wrong? Why did this happen to me two times in a row? Am I not being a good friend? What is there that I can do to change the way my friendships with my good friends end?

I’m not going to change the person that I am, but I will start by changing the things that I do. I’m going to stop pushing myself in other people’s life whether they want me in it or not. Because at the end of the day, I always see myself on my knees begging for forgiveness when I’m not at fault. Simple because I don’t want to loose that special person in my life.

But what about me, am I not special to them that when there is something wrong that we can’t come together as two grown ups and say what’s on our mind and stop playing this childish game? There are many who call their self adults, but are you really one? You’re only an adult when you act like one.

From my past experience I have learned to just stop pushing and planning. Just leave things be and prepare for disappointments even if you have a great friendship with someone and they’re a nice person, because you never know. People argue and break up good friendships for stupid reasons; from what they heard and what they feel. “Silver will soon turn old while gold remains gold”.

So if you find yourself having to deal with the same situation every time; it’s about time you change the background or the colors that you are using to paint that beautiful picture. In other words change the way you handle things. You may not be the problem, but you can try to avoid it from happening when the change starts with you.

I said that I was going to keep this one short, but my fingers have a mind of there own you know …

I have three cousins who are away in Holland studying, three that are still finishing secondary in St. Maarten, and myself here in Curacao.

We use to always be together chilling and having fun, going to the ball field, beach, town, movies etc. I grew to have such a great bond with my cousins that we are known as C4L (Cousins 4 Life). It sounds kind of silly because yes we will always be cousins and nothing will come out that, but it’s beyond cousins, it’s a friendship for life. I can truly say they are my real friends, and up to this day we are growing tighter.
One day I was wondering what it would be like if all of us cousins were studying together? That would be so great. It would be like a dream come through. I wouldn’t have to go on vacation so often because I would already have all that I need.

I’m not too sure how the studying would take place, but I know for sure we will be partying until we get a hangover from parties. We are just the craziest children when you put us together. There’s Angie…She is a cool person, but fun like hell she can think of the craziest thing to do, she is very funny also, a great friend and loving cousin, then there’s Crystal…I don’t even know what to say about this psycho, she is just wild and out of order, and I love her just that way, she loves her self and a picture taking, then there’s Deangelo…he is an exciting person to hang around with but you have to know him good, for me he’s the quiet type at times, then you have Jamila…what a sweet little angel when around strangers, but she is the most caring and loving devil I know…I love her like a fat kid loves cake, then you have Giovanni…what a headache, I really can’t explain him but you will love his style the first day you meet him, he’s funny, funny and just funny, unpredictable, crazy and nuts, I love his ways and being around him=>my future husband. Last and least….can we have a drum role please….brrrtttttttttttttttt…Ashley…this punkin of a girl is just a natural nut head, if you think that all the crazy people are locked down in the crazy house, then one got away a couple of years ago. She can think on anything and she will make me laugh, just looking at her makes me want to pee myself, being in her presence just makes me want to cry. You would never believe that she is a wacko if you saw her walking on the road. But she only does that for the people she love, so sorry you wont be able to get that treatment!

If we were all living together, I know that Jamila and Deangelo would be the parents in the house. Jamila for sure, she’s not a nerd but has always done great in school and I admire her for that. So with her I can picture doing the homework and keeping things in order while the rest of us are out flexing…(smiles)…but seriously speaking that would be a great idea because we would be there for each other, so that no one slacks off. And Angie and I can cook up a storm together so no one will ever go hungry, unless the fridge is empty . And having Ashley & Gio around, we will never be bored and don’t need to go to the movies for laughter. We would have it right at home.

There’s one thing I never get tired of is my cousins and their presence. F.A.M.I.L.Y Forever And More I Love You All!! Which one is my favorite cousin? I will never tell. I love them equally but differently.

Really wish a great dream like that would come through that me and my cousins could study together. Just a great big Successful Happy Family….

The end!

Soon I will have my last test week to round off the school year in no more then two weeks.

I have learned from my math tutor the smart way to study. Especially when it’s a lot. I have ten test, and eight of them I need to study for. The other two is Drama and Story telling. Now I made a little chart down below where I plan what I am going to study per day. I rather get everything in my head on one day, and review it another day. That’s just how I study, but still using the method of study, take a break, study.

So that is my plan, I wrote it down just to keep track on what I have to study each day. Each subject I will study for an hour, take a break and then study for another hour, and in the weekend I will review them all. And that I sticked on the fridge. Anyone can make a plan, and even better then mines , but it’s not everyone that sticks to that plan. So try it out and let me know how it goes.

This is the first time I am trying this out in this way, because I’ve never had to study eight subject in two weeks. In secondary I had like four to five, so this pressure is new to me. But I will pull through, because I believe I can!

Here I am in Curacao, while it’s Carnival season down in St. Maarten. I won’t lie and say it’s not bothering me, because it is. Everyone coming online and saying how sweet the jump-up was, and how sick the upcoming shows is going to be. Keisha Cole is coming, this person is coming etc etc.

I am a Carnival animal, especially the jump-ups. I never missed a jump-up in the last three years, even when I was in the Committee last year I took part in a little wukking up . Don’t even talk about jouvert morning…(when the jump-up start 4 in the morning until the sun go up), that is just the bomb. I also took part in the troupe for grand parade three years in a row, and now to be missing this really breaks my heart.

I love my Carnival, and I am disappointed that I will be missing it this year. But school comes first they always say…sigh… Better luck next year I hope.

For those of you who never been to St. Maarten during Carnival, make sure you’re there, or start planning your vacation for next year! “Carnival 2009, we coming down to buss up a wine”

Safe Carnival 2008 to all who will be there!

Last night my classmate and I went to watch a comedy show. I wasn’t sure I was going to understand it, but I still decided to go just for the fun and to have some fun out of school for a change.

Well it came out better then I thought. I understood like 60% of the comedy and what I didn’t understand I just went along with the flow and laughed with everyone else. And then when everyone stopped laughing I would ask my classmates what was the joke…

It was really funny, but very long though. Nearly four hours and the next day was school. I found it hard to get up this morning. But the class seemed to like it very much and the next one will be some time in May so they’re planning to go to that one also.

You know I’ll be there!!